Monday, June 16, 2008
alright, one word to describe my mood now-
SIANED.hey, all of u agree that holidays suck big time right?
only a month had passed, and so many damned things happened..
and we are STILL thinking about it, and feeling depressed.
how i wished, life could be simple and more understandable.
so we wouldnt need to sit at home all day, and think about those things.
is it so difficult, just to have simple love..
well it all just seems so difficult, or to say it doesnt seem simple AT ALL.
if life could allow us to have so any "if i didnt do that" or "how i wished i did that"
how great would that be?
but in fact in life, there's no such thing.
you regret what u did, there's no turning back.
the only way is to move on, and stop harping on it.
simple as it sounds, how difficult it may be.
some choices in life, may sound very simple.
but once u make that choice, you will have to sacrifice something in return.
that's just how life works, like it or not.
i bet all of u had gone thru this stage before, and i shant bother to name any examples.
life can be simple, or complicated.
it isnt just how u perceive it, its how u do things.
if a simple perception would be sufficient to change things, would pple even be emo-ing?
apparently no, right?
well i do admit that perceptions sometimes do change how life is.
but i seriously doubt it'll be sufficient to cause ur life to turn around, and be simpler.
no matter how many "i wished.." or "i hope.." u say, it's gonna change nothing in the end.
like it or not.
uh okay enough of that crappy emo stuff. now lets move on.
first up..holiday hw!
oh well, left with..
-english self study(which i dont intend to do)
-english journal(uh..probably tmr, dun feel like doing it today)
-maths hardcopy quiz(tmr la, tell u today no mood liao)
-history mindmap(duno how do, eh xw u better lend me ur mindmap when sch reopen hor)
-science elearning(xw u also lend me this hor!)
that's abt it.
i think most of u would most probably have completed all of it by now.
and yes, i know im slow.
hope that'll be able to go over to my aunt's hse on wed.
cos thurs going to do PW project on thurs @ bugis library.
than stay over there till friday, then come back.
i kinda like staying over there.
cos i can play maple till i go crazy there, and there's no limit to when i sleep.
still feeling emo abt doing project on thursday.
cos no one going eat lunch w me before that.
and after that im also going to eat dinner.
but then i think im most probably gonna eat alone.
cos i dun rly like the idea of hanging out w not-so-close frens.
i'd rather be alone if its like this.
so on project day, im gonna enjoy the feeling of doing things alone.
even though its nt some odd-one-out kinda thing.
just dont feel like being in groups recently.
maybe if one person frm class would come and accompany me.
that'll be more than great(sounds wierd huh).
anw, to be frank.
i dont like to go out in big groups now.
i just enjoy the feeling of being with some close frens.
and that should be enough.
not that im put off by noise.
just that i prefer to be in the company of pple that understand me.
sounds wierd.
but i dont care.
so anyone's intending to accompany me to have lunch @ bugis not?
gtg, even though no mood to do hw.
duno why recently emo-ing has kinda become a trend.
or is it cos the problems that are difficult to solve, cause pple to emo?
i dont know.
but its the problems that im facing now that makes me so emo.
of cos i hope i wont emo too.
but it only sounds easy, but wont be easy.
till then guys, bye.
2:00 PM
